Life losses leave us hurting and wondering. Cancer, financial woes, divorce, death, suicide…such times raise questions which are difficult or impossible to answer. We question why, we go over the details in our minds, trying to make sense of it all. We blame ourselves, others, even God. We wonder what could or should have been done to prevent such tragedies. Friends and fellow Christians mean well with their attempts to ease your pain. But sometimes answers don’t come, God is silent. Deuteronomy 29:29 says “The secret things belong to the Lord our God, but those things which are revealed belong to us.” When it comes to understanding things, God has his territory, and we have ours. Ours is limited to what He decides to reveal to us. He may choose to explain it to us or not. I struggled a lot with this after my dad died. I prayed over and over for God to reveal to me why it had happened. I never have received that answer. Only recently have I realized that I may never know, and have come to accept that. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding, ” Proverbs 3:5, a verse I’ve known well, but have to yet to actually put into action until now. I know now that God has chosen not to explain this to me. I believe he has been working in me this whole time, molding and preparing me for the good and for his glory. I trust what he is doing in me right now, and know that my strength will come from him when it is time to come forth and serve others while serving him.