As I have written in the last couple of blog posts I have managed to gain back all the weight I lost 5 years ago. While I’ve been pretty good at hating myself for it I have decided not to dwell on it anymore, forget the past, move forward, and start over. I’ve struggled with getting my mindset back where it needs to be. A lot of the journey is mental and I’m realizing that I alone have the power to win or lose it.
Sometimes it takes a special friend to push you and force you out of your comfort zone to make things happen. I recently started running again with a friend of mine. She has been running for a while now and has much more stamina than I do. I do not have asthma but if you heard me while running you would think I am having an asthma attack! lol She pushes me to keep going even when I don’t think I can run anymore. I think there may have been a margarita bribe at some point. LOL My body isn’t used to running so much at one time and it took a beating. My legs ached so much that it kept me up at night. Even my ribs were sore! If I didn’t have her support I probably would have given up. Truth be told, I probably wouldn’t be running at all.
I haven’t even been running a full month with her when we decided to sign up for a local 5K. It was my first ever and not gonna lie I was so nervous. I wasn’t able to run a lot leading up to the 5K due to my legs hurting so bad in the weeks leading up to it. One thing I have learned is that I can run farther without stopping if I slow my pace, and let me tell ya, it’s SLOW! I had to stop several times to catch my breath, but on the last lap I was determined to run it without stopping. I pushed through and we finished together.
Aren’t we cute? I absolutely HATE having my picture taken since gaining my weight back so this is a HUGE DEAL that I am posting this. Maybe that’s exactly what I needed to help me get my mindset where it needs to be. Having goals helps to. One of my goals is to lose at least 30 lbs by the time we go on vacation this summer. Hopefully in a few months I can celebrate that goal. That journey begins now.